"I can do anything"

Do you ever have those days where you're feeling a little down?  You wonder if you're doing what you're meant to do? Or what you set out to do?

I had an incredibly tough month at work, and sometimes I have to create my own pick me up to get me back in the good moods I usually find myself in.

I'm not talking about shopping, chocolate, or wine.

I'm talking about good friends and excellent coworkers who have been in the very same shoes I'm wearing right now.  Being a sales/store manager is stressful, and when you put 50+ hours into work a week and still don't get the results and you know the results aren't because of you, it's hard.  I think the profession I'm in isn't appreciated because I'm not teaching kids or healing people or saving the world.  I don't get a summer break and I don't get presents.  I work early mornings, late nights, and will sometimes work over 7 days straight if it's needed.

As a manager, I feel I'm every occupation rolled into one.  I'm a mentor to my team.  I'm a psychologist when someone on my team is feeling down.    I'm the leader that everyone looks up to.  I'm the person who makes sad customers feel happy, and happy customers feel even better.  I'm the person who gets yelled at often as if I'm not really a person, and I'm the teacher when there's something that needs to be taught.  I'm the administrative assistant that does all of the paperwork, and the HR manager that handles difficult situations and schedules. I'm the one who answers to my boss if we have a bad day, and the first one to celebrate if we have a good one. I don't get overtime, and I don't get told everyday I'm doing a good job.   After everything that happens at work, I come home and try to be a good wife to my husband and a good mom to my pup.  As you can imagine, this can become stressful.

But somehow, I find joy in this.  If my last job taught me anything, I realized I need to be moving at a fast pace to be happy.  If there aren't a thousand things to do on my To Do list, I find myself bored.  I need to lead or inspire something in someone, or I feel like I'm not needed.  Hard days hit me hard, but good days feel sooooo good.

Thank God I have excellent coworkers to talk to, a boss that is incredibly hard to work for but at the same time, very inspiring, and a husband that deals my emotional roller coaster that I don't sometimes leave behind once I leave my store.

With my job now, I can only help but wonder what in the world I'm going to do when we have kids.  I hope whenever we do decide to have kids, I want them to be happy and have a "can do" attitude, just like this one :)